Lately I've been tryna act like I'm good. Acting like my life is ok 4 right now and satisfied. Because I don't wanna complain and I don't wanna knock anymore blessings. But truth is my heart it still in the same condition it was in a couple months ago. i haven't told anybody because they all say the same thing and it's been so long now that they all get annoyed with me instead of telling me it's ok. I don't blame them. I'm mad at myself more than anything/anybody. I got perfect and beautiful women in front of me all day everyday and I'm still trippin on someone who clearly doesn't give a fuck about me anymore. Of course she's still there for me but it comes with a cost. She never believes anything I tell her whether it be serious or just bullshit. And it still makes me upset that 6 months later we're still apart. But that's life. And now I got doctors telling me things that got me goin nuts. And all I want is for her to be with me every step of the way...but i guess i can't be. She probably thinks I'm lying about this as well. But it's all good.......see there I go frontin again. I'm tryna be as positive as possible but living with a broken heart is hard. Especially when its your fault and on top of that you have other pain to deal with it. Niggas tell me to stfu and suck it up, so........I guess if I haven't done it now I cant. *Kanye shrug*
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