I'm having one of those days really early. This is due to me thinking way too much, as always. I'm so confused about life right now. I guess this is one of those phases in life that shape the road you're about to follow.
Sometimes I wonder why I wasn't given an easy life. Why did my family struggle? Why couldn't I have all the things all the other kids have?
In my 20 yrs of living I feel like I've done nothing but disappointment to those that love me. I always seem to let someone down. And it's always with me doing something that I feel is completely innocent or beneficial to me. I'm always apologizing. Always. I don't get it. I analyze myself from time to time and of course I know my flaws but I don't view myself as a bad person or someone with terrible character. I've made mistakes in the past and just try to learn from them. I hate hurting people. That is NEVER my intention. So whenever I think about the people I have disappointed, I feel like shit. I hate imagining someone thinking of me as a bad person. I'm not fond of people's opinion on me but I care about the opinions of those I care about (or claim to)
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